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i don't know if i'm gonna use this blog for things or how, but i figure that i might as well post things on it in addition to my personal blog at moth11.net

for that blog, i've been making sure to update it once a week, and i've been super consistent, which feels nice, and from time to time the post is maybe a bit better than normal, so i give it a name that isn't a date. my vague thought with this leaflet place is that from time to time i'd look back through those named blogs (and maybe even some of the unnamed ones also) for gems, and refine them into this form. since i don't want to cause too much pointless dumb spam, and also allow my very bad ideas to not see the light of day

after all, i think everything i have ever thought is quite bad and false, and perhaps the greatest use of a blog is to get the bad false things out of the head as soon as possible so they can be forgotten

"...the temporary shutting of the doors and windows of consciousness, the relief from the din and struggle accompanying the activity of the organs that serve us, whether working in mutual cooperation or antagonism; a little quiet, a little tabula rasa of the consciousness, so as to make room again for the new, and above all the nobler functions and functionaries, room for government, foresight, predetermination - this is the benefit, as i have said, of active forgetfulness..."

surprisingly, i haven't been super well lately haha, i'm sure you wouldn't've guessed it from the last blog post (i really didn't mean to make it that dark, it just came out...) but today i finally got around to trying out stream.place and i had some fun with it. i transmogrified my lil beeper for xcvr into a terminal ui chat widget , i think my lil gimmick is gonna be that i'll only every livestream the contents of my terminal. i think that i'm going to aim to stream most weekdays from 9:00am->around noon at least, kinda the overarching goal is to force myself to do a modicum of work per day on xcvr because in the end i do feel infinitely better once i force myself to type type type...

do i have other feelings in my head that need to get out? well, i guess that i'm gonna restart my eepy radio show, of course also on stream.place. that was the other motivating factor to figure out how to livestream. that will be on saturdays starting at 7:00 am eastern. the above times are also in eastern. well it's not like i'm really talking to anybody but myself but who cares i don't

i'm sure there was another thing but if i've already forgotten it then i've already won...

onwards!

-rachel